My Mom
Well it's been a while since I last posted here and a lot has happened. before you get all excited, there has been no reunion yet... yet...
I will take the events of this year one post at a time so you don't think you have you sit for hours and read.
Last November, my mom got sick. very sick. Her health had been questionable, her memory very bad, but honestly didn't think it was all that bad. She went into the hospital in December in a lot of pain (her back kept on crumbling on it's self and her copd was bad). She was released in January with 24/7 care by a group of ladies I will ALWAYS be indebted to. As the end of January came, it was becoming clear that she would not recover and that hospice care was needed. I believe by this time, from conversations she had with her caregivers, that she knew she was dieing too.
Many gathered and said our goodbyes and I love yous and on Feb 14th Evelyn Gertrude Newlands Kettles Hegarty lost the battle she had fought so hard and went to be with the LORD.
So I lost my mom. Sure she is still in my heart and memory. I dream of her often and miss her tremendously. What does this do with my search. I think I need to make it clear that I am not looking to replace her by searching, I still want to thank my birth mom. Even at the end of her life, my mom was also wanting to meet the woman her gave birth to me. She would ask over and over again if we had found her. So I continue to search. With some of what mom left me I have hired a private investigator to look. It's been a few months, and nothing yet, but I wait and pray. Ultimately, if and when I find her, it will be in God's time. He is still in control of all of this, even when we don't understand. It's about trust and patience. Things that are increasing because I have to. So pray with me, mourn with me, wait with me and hope with me.
