the goodness of people

Well it's been a little over 2 weeks since I posted my search picture on facebook.  No I haven't found any of my birth family yet,... and in the dark moments I don't think I ever will this side of Heaven. However I have met some very nice people.  The support from friends, strangers and new friends is wonderful.
I have been given advice from people who have already done the search (some too late).

I've discovered some new information.  A search angel advised me to petition for my order of adoption which revealed that my birth name was Patricia Robinson. I have a correspondence from the lawyer who handled my adoption that had that name on it and we had speculated that that was my name... it is now confirmed.

The order of adoption also had my birth in Valley Stream NY.  My birth certificate had said Hempstead. Curious? not really.. it's kinda a Long Island thing. See there are hamlets in towns... and Valley Stream is a hamlet of Hempstead, just like Port Washington is a hamlet of the Town of North Hempstead. Anyway, just some new info (or clarifying info)

I have a few new avenues to look at. Both the search angel and the private eye I hired seems to think that there are too many holes in my non identifying info so I'm going to make some phone calls this week .. questions are: Was Robinson my birth fathers last name? Was my birth mother in a home for unwed mothers? (this is THE question - if she was there was one in Valley Stream, run by the Salvation Army and children born there are have documentation says born in Valley Stream and born in Hempstead which I have both..... hmm....) Hopefully  answers at least one of these questions.. I'm told that answers are permitted if I ask the right questions.

Anyway I'll keep you all updated

so much in a year pt 2. Restoration in loss

I found this draft and figure... hey I'll post it :)

I would like to share a few things outside of my search that I have experienced or learned with the passing of mom. okay?

My mom was a great lady and always wanted the best for me and my brothers, and with imperfection she did her best to do so. One dynamic of my family is that we have all just kind of lived our lives and connected through her, heard of each others lives etc. Well since she passed, I hear from my brothers regularly, see their families and really have reconnected with them.  We often say to each other that mom is smiling down on us.  (And if my brothers are reading this right now... thanks for giving me a break from all the phone calls late at night.  there is nothing new, November is coming and you can pest me then,...)

this was written over a year ago.. and I still am thankful for the family God placed me in when my birth family couldn't care for me

Today I try something new

      Well over a year and a half ago I hired a private eye to search, paid a lot of money and still no results. Recently i have seen a number of posts on facebook with searcher putting some information about their adoption.  Some that I have re-posted have been reunited in days... not sure if I would get those some results but ... that's my plan today!!! Just enough info to see if there are any family members out there.
       I spent some time in prayer about this and have decided that if I don't find anymore out by my 50th birthday (in June) then I will drop the search a together and will be at peace with the fact that a reunion is not meant to be. Please don't tell me to never give up.. it's just that really this is hard on me especially after mom died and to know that I will never know will settle my heart.  I know I always have a Heavenly Father that loved me so much that He sent His Son as a sacrifice for my sins. I know He sent me to 2 wonderful parents who loved me and wanted me.

     So here's to my final try... pray for God's will and peace in my heart