So I turned 50 and didn't hear from "her" and I'm okay with this... I don't want to disrupt or "ruin" her life... I feel in my heart of hearts that someday she'll be ready...just not now...
So my life seems to be in limbo. My kids are grown and either married or preparing for marriage. My adoptive parents are gone. My job is a job and not what it once was. I used to teach and I miss that. My church is in transition. It seems like everyday I work, come home, sleep then rinse and repeat.
One thing that has happened recently is that by spending a week alone with my hubby my love for him grew in leaps and bounds... We had a great vacation with the only thing to worry about was what towel animal would be on our bed when we got back from dinner... and we really enjoyed being with each other... no kids, no housework, no work, and no bills (until we got home)
So why am I writing today.. I don't know...
The bible says a people without a vision shall surely die.. and maybe it's I'm looking for a vision. Hubby and I have talked about so many different ideas.. house flipping, buying a rv and traveling, My church is praying and considering opening a school so that's exciting.. but not by any means definite.
The one thing on our hearts is to move to Guatemala and work at a children's home.. I would teach and hubby (I will call him hubby since he is VERY private) would help with maintenance. Are we called to go...??? We're still not 100% sure. depends on when you ask us. I love Guatemala and the people at the home and feel it would be a great use of our gifts.
So as a put a bookmark in this journey for my birth mother... pray for us was we seek God's plan for us.
Maybe I should start a blog about life at 50... and a search for vision and purpose.. what do you think... would anyone read it?
